Eight years later my mum became seriously ill and I almost lost her. I was filled with so much pain. I began to turn to a darker side, doing things that a mother would never want her daughter to do. I’m sorry mum for growing up too fast. I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever put you through. I feel like only a ghost of your daughter remains but I’m kicking it, I’m kicking everything so that you can see your daughter one last time.